Note: Coarse Language. Irrational sentences. Pent-up Rage. Misunderstood.
Tonight, I’ve messaged a few friends to the basketball court. I’ve left out some of them as I knew that they are busy working or something. As for others, I knew that they are waiting for people to ask them to play basketball. So I did not bother asking them also as I believed that if they have the ‘heart’ to play basketball, they would come down. Instead of me 'begging' them to come down, they should have taken the initiative.
After awhile, the soccer players come down again. No fights or argument this time round, they asked if they can play full court. My reply was that they can play as long as they don’t anyhow ram the ball at us. They behave as reasonable young adults this time and did not quarrel or anything. Though, they threw their soccer ball from high floors again. Heck... Let’s wait till it strikes somebody before they learn a lesson. I do not want to wage another war again. I’m drained out... Maybe I would join them to play soccer next time. Lol~ I’ve got crazy ideas. I mean... I’ve in a sense ‘fought’ hard for the right to play basketball on the court. Yet... When we had the basketball court to ourselves, no one went down to play basketball. In that case, I might as well join them to play soccer instead. Anyway, I’m entering the army soon. The ‘court’ would be theirs sooner or later. Unless others would ‘defend’ their rights to play on the basketball court, there’s no point going to war with them.
Next, a long-time enemy (NB@) appears... He’s my enemy because he was my friend before. A friend who does not have the balls (gut) to tell me that he had misplaced (lost) my basketball. People may think that I’m petty (narrow-minded) to remember an incident that took place years ago. Well... I’m indeed petty over such things because he was a good friend of mine at that time. Yet, he did not apologise nor do anything to show that he is sorry for losing my basketball. I was really upset by that. It is like he had done nothing wrong when he had lost my first leather basketball which is fully sponsored by yours sincerely (me). Since he did not appear apologetic and treated me as invisible, I decided that he and I are no longer friends there and then... If he had apologised, we might still be friends now. It is good that it turns out this way as I can view his true colours.
Anyway, ‘NB@’ really pull my hidden ‘anger’ out. Seeing his face automatically made me played to my potential. I played hard bball. I’ve managed to won two rounds against him. Probably, he was not in his best condition after jogging but who cares? There was a few questionable fouls then might not be appear to be fouls if there is a proper referee. Yet, no one argues with me... No one in his right mind would argue with an ‘uncontrolled’ beast on the loose. No one argues with Desprorado when he’s wild... E'nuff said.
At this point in time, I’m really at a lost as to the ‘mistakes’ that I’ve made. I sincerely do not want to force other people to do things that they disliked to do. They are free to roam the world. I’m only giving advices and guiding them. If I’ve ever imposed my will upon you, I’m sorry and I do not mean it. I would just take a step back and leave you untouched. BUT... I would still 'point out' peoples’ shortcomings so that they would be able to know where they have gone wrong. I’m entitled to my own opinions and thoughts. Even if I’ve few friends left... I would persevere in what I feel is ‘right’... When no one supports me, I would defend myself. I would take care of myself... I’m motivated to become a stronger person. Hah~ That’s why I’m going to the gym tomorrow. A strong mind coupled with a strong body, my National Service would be a breeze~
posted by Desprorado @ 23:22
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